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We returned Selah to her mother in Kalamazoo yesterday afternoon. We loved her without holding back, as the picture to the right, taken on the day we returned her, attests to. There are so many "if only's" in this situation, as maybe there are in every tragic situation.

Clearly, the birth mom is very fragile emotionally and in deep depression. The grandmother will be providing care for Selah. It is hard for us to understand how this new placement of Selah is better for her, but we must let go.

Please pray with us......
for Amanda, the birthmom: that she will get healthy.
for baby Selah: that she will grow strong and beautiful and know that she is loved.
for Dan and I: that our hearts will heal from brokenness and emptiness, and maybe that we'll stop trying to understand why.

Thanks to so many of you who have reached out to us with support, care, and love.

Almost everyday, Selah has an episode where she just starts looking back and forth incessantly, like she is looking for a car to arrive and pick her up. We tried to capture the moment on video and you'll have to see what happened.

YouTube video

It was a wonderful weekend but all good things must come to an end. The weekend ended wonderfully with a beautiful drive along the Western coast of Lake Cayuga stopping a number of wineries to see if NY can hang with the best. The wine was good and the views, particularly from Sheldrake Point Vineyard, were incredible. Now its back to the grindstone. . . .